If i saw myself now last week i wold have Tripped me!

So i woke up today... BEFORE TEN!!! WTF?!? i know right!

And i just woke up in a generally good mood....
And the realisation that if people don't think you're worth their time... they're not worth yours!

I also still had the weirdest dreams everrr... That i most likely woke up a billion times during the night.... and as i was falling asleep i fell out of my bed... which just made me have to start the falling asleep process allll over again!

But I still woke up in an annoyingly good mood.
Perhaps it's because it's the first time in ages that i woke up to the sound of rain falling on my window! or perhaps it's that i should get up before ten more often... although it was my unreasonable good mood that made me get outta bed so early... so yeah

Me who cares.. a good mood is a good mood. the only thing that would make me feel Even better is A nice big fire to burn some stuff in... i think that'd be good!! and Fairly Theraputic haha

anyway... Whatever.

The joys of Daylight Saving!! :)

So i found out today that in Utah the clocks Go back an hour like... now! Yay!! it's Like eleven pm all over again... Oh Love!~! I have decided that i like weekends. More than i used to too!

I also have a weird Chewing gum thing going on... i bought like 4 giant packs of gum on monday... that makes me happy! especially cuz they're awesomely flavoured!! although i think my Jaws are getting pretty irritated at constantly having to chew and blow bubbles... But Christi Likes that so there.

I woke up this morning feeling like i had some major hang over or something...it was like death... but it's just a silly cold...

My iPod and i have become good friends again! for a while mr Poddy was Neglected and only brought out when i needed a good song to cry to. haha Christi's lame! she knows!
But now we're good again! it's awesome for taking walks or when i'm getting ready... i think i'd die if i didn't have it with me! aaaaaaah... nightmares! lol

Speaking of nightmares... i still am having the most insane dreams EVER!!
This is the most Disjointed Blog post ever... but it's for the sake of me not losing my mind...


It's already november... Holy cow.. i can't believe the year has gone so fast.... when i think about the past year... ugh... Vomit! if only i knew how puke worthy it was gonna be before it was!!!
Although... i'm that lame that i'd probably have said... Eh... i'm down with that...

Although it's always good to know what's coming... so you can be like i knew that was gonna happen... i'm prepared... Rather than... WHAT THE CRAP?!?!!?!
Then again... Knowing me when i do know what's gonna happen i'm still sickeningly positive about it in my head even when on the outside i'm as negative as hell about things. It's cuz i'm weird.

Whatever..

Goodnight.

The weird dreams i dream.

Today i woke up about an hour after i usually wake up... although yesterday... it was 2 hours Later.
I think i want to Blame Criminal Minds For my weird dreams and lack of proper sleep... Yesterday morning i woke up thinking i needed to find "ruth's" Diary so we could figure out who would want to Kidnap her... i don't even know anyone by the name of Ruth... but within a few seconds of opening my eyes and stretching out of the ball i usually turn into while sleeping, i snapped back to reality and laughed at my self for letting a tv show Turn me crazy... like that time i watched Doll house and woke up in the night Smacking my self along side the head saying "why are you making me do this" i thought i had no control over my hands and the "dollhouse people" were making me do it... One can't help but laugh at themselves when they awake properly and realise that they are most likely INSANE!! haha Although.. that time i was super sick and had a fever... so i'll blame it all on that!! :D

Tuesday night i dreamed that i could fly... I hate those dreams for the very fact that i always have to wake up to the reality that ... i cannot just flap my arms and fly. Sometimes it's not even Flapping my arms... sometimes i have to hold some random object to make me fly... Like a Playing card. or once i flew on a tennis racket as if it were a Witch's broom. Sometimes though.. i don't fly.. i just jump really high. and in my dreams i'm used to doing it but part of me is still majorly Freaked out at how high i can get.

then there's the weird dreams where i'm drowning but for a few seconds after my head goes under the water i can breathe, i always find myself thinking "Wow this is like that dream i once had except it's real life" and the waking up to find that indeed.. it was just like the other dreams i have when i breathe under water. I'm such a weirdo...

The two types of dreams never go together though.. usually... Except tuesday i dreamed that i was flying over the river in cork city.. and someone was drowning so i stopped flying and tried to help them... then i was drowning... except not really cuz i was breathing under water... i think my face just sometimes gets covered by my blanket and so my brain tries to compensate for what my body is feeling. Like the moments before you're going to sleep and suddenly your foot jerks... and you feel like you dreamed you were tripping.. well i think that you only think you dreamed you were tripping cuz your brains trying to make sense of the random Foot Jerking.

Really i'm just rambling on hoping to keep myself awake long enough to be tired enough to sleep properly.


Goodnight.

Well Well Well... Guess who's in Utah for the next 6 months! ... Christi is!


It's a really weird feeling... Like even when i was getting on the plane it felt like it wasn't supposed to be real... and now still waking up every morning (there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriends four post bed) *sorry that was random* back to the point... it still feels like it's not real! i guess it'll start to feel more normal after a while... After all.. it's only been 4 days...

But yeah! Utah's so pretty! i Love the mountains! didn't really get the chance to see them like this the last time i was here for the 3 days....


Anyhoo... That's it for now! :D


Christi

Dwarfsm

Sometimes Beign the Bigger Person Makes you feel Really Small!....

Oh well...

Just Venting VENTING

I've decided to start a new Blog... for the sake of Letting people know what's up when i leave...

But....

For the Sake of venting... well.. i'll still use this hahaha.....


so... yeah... i shall post the thingermajig of the new one as soon as ... well as soon as it exists!

:/ christi

So Long Sucker!

so... this last week and a bit has been eventfull....

I spent like 4 days in Dublin Visiting Katja!! she's back for good!! :D :D

then the tuesday i came back to cork and then went up that night to limerick for a fireside with the Chapmans! :D
It was crazy! it was like Pres Chapman Came there to give that talk to just me!! i think even Heavelny Father coming donw Himself to talk to me would have been More Subtle!! lol

So yeah... i realised there were changes i need to make... Luckily in His Talk Pres Chapman also spoke of blessings that put my mind at ease!

So i made the changes.... That night.... as hard as it was, it was right... Then BAM! 2 days later it was like all hell was loose on me.... this last few days have been some of the hardest ever... i actually considered Killing myself as an option... I felt betrayed and worthless... it sucked big time... then i thought to myself... why the hell am i having a harder time almost from the instant i decided to do the right thing.... i should be blessed... then i realised that Just Like Heavenly Father Speaks to us through people... Satan Does too....

So i'm Kicking his ass out the door..... and the minute i decided to forget the Crap things and people... i saw the blessings that Pres Chapman spoke about... I had a good day forgetting the bad days!

The Church is true



Christi