Can We Pretend that Airplanes in the the night sky are Like Shooting Stars? i could really use a Wish right now

But Some People just make living through all that... completely Worth It!! :)

Whatever the opposite of home sick is! Sick of home?

This Time Last year i was sooo not here!.... and right now i sooo don't want to be here!...

argh!... i'm feeling like such a whiney baby but yeah.. i need to be gone for a while again! As much as i know the church is true... thought of seeing everyone every sunday... just makes the thought of staying in bed so appealing! and then i'm not teaching ysa sunday school... so i have even less motivation to go! Aaaaargh! i wish i was in a biiig ward where no one knew me and i didn't know them... we could just take each other at face value.. instead of having to talk to someone and thinking to myself.. "you're such a *insert word to describe a number of people here*" or thinking... "avoid them... i know what they said about me but if i acknowledge the fact that i know i'll have to kill them but i can't bare to talk to you and pretend it's all ok!!!"

Or wondering why they themself are talking to me when they think so badly of me?

i know it's my problem.. not theirs... but argh! Holiday please?! anyone?!

it's been a long long time!

well.. yes i've been bad again!! SHAME ON ME!! lol

well.. hmm.. lets see what has happened?

I finished College... Thank Goodness....
i got a job... starting tomorrow.... pretty suckish... i'm still hoping someone calls me and offers something better by tomorrow.... the thought of it is killing me!!!! i guess heavenly Father knows what he's doing. i just hope his plans don't include me doing this job for too long....

the weather is amazing!!!! flipping roasting... i feel like i'm in america again!... (ha yeah i wisssssh)

this place is driving me NUTS!!! i seriously need to get outta here for some time before i either go insane or kill someone!! AAARRRGGGGHHHH!!


Anyhoo.... That's it for now?!

i should stress more!

today i had my one and only exam.... of course i didn't study for it.... it went pretty awsomely!!

Tomorrow i have to have my final stuff in.... of course a whole bunch of earlier stuff i didn't get in... Why>! ? because i am a huge waste of space! that's why! anyway... i sometimes wish i would stress more about things than to just sit and be like... yeah yeah i'll have loads of time to do it tomorrow... i do stress about stuff... i just don't do anything about it!! why am i so retarded?! hmmm i dunno either?!


Oh well.... i guess tomorrow i can find some other part of my life to screw up since college'll be over right>!

this is how i feel right now..... Click the link! :D

x http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_jifKb_j0c

oh the pain!

so today we had Ysa Family home evening again... last week we had 9 there... this week we had 10 there and 5 of the usual comers were not there because of college work.... pretty impressive eh?! we're doing really well... and we had a good bit of fun too tonight! played dodgeball for a while and then decided to play football.... me being in flip flops decided to take them off and play barefoot... i kicked the partition as i kicked the ball... split my toes that they bled... then kicked Michaels Steel Toe Caps... Broke at least 2 toes and flipping hurt the others pretty bad.... cry cry cry! lol

luckily i didn't cry! we still played 2 more matches afterwards! lol

but yeah! was a good night!! :D :D

Progress....

well this weekend was District council and auxilary training... so i had to go to that in limerick and then give a talk at the training... i was flipping freaking out but it forced me to think about how we were doing in ysa in cork with the New Centre For Young Adults that we have going.

January: 2 ysa attending Family Home Evening
3 ysa attending sacrament meeting regularly

April: 9-11 Ysa attending family Home Evening (one of whom has been inacttive for over 12 years, He also brings a friend.)
6-8 Ysa attending sacrament meeting AND gospel doctrine classes
11 Ysa coming out to dinner and Games on a saturday evening.

I'm Glad i was asked to give that talk.. as scary as it was it showed me how the programme really changes peoples lives and benefits us all.

YAY!!

:D