you know the part of thos epic war movies where it's dark and grey and the fight is building up?... then suddenly there's this climactic battle and people die and then it's over and the sun comes up... and the winners walk away victorious, although they'd lost so many on the way they made it to the sunshine and there's green and smiling and happiness?..... i feel like i'm in that movie! i wish the sun would come out and i could stop mourning what i lost in the battle and get on with victory.
although... it feels like i'm only in last half of the battle.
I wish i could skip to the greenery
just fastforward the battle to the scenery
I realised today that i was so busy trying to be angry at the ones that hurt me that i never got a chance to just be.
when i looked up smiling at them, not thinking about being angry, i knew i wasn't angry... i wanted to be, now i'm just angry at myself for being such a failure that i can't be angry at her anymore for ho she hurt me.... Just hurt but not angry.
i want to fast forward the the part where i am something.
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