Country??

I just realised something right now..... 
if people ask i always say i don't like country music... But when i think about it... i think i just don't like certain country stuff... cuz i was listening to music on youtube... and i went through Shania Twain, Taylor Swift, Uncle Cracker, Lee Ann Rimes, The Band Perry,  and some other Random country artists.. and i was like... "am i in a particularly country mood today?" but then i relised it's not just today that i'm listening to them... and i remember My Shania Twain age... haha when my Parents bought her albums i was a little obsessed.....
so i guess what i'm saying is... i just found out i don't dislike country as much i told myself i did... hahaha

And on that note   Click here


Lol....
K Bye

Backsies!

Whoa... so i went a while again without doing this but i figured it was better than just complaining about cork all the time  lol....

so Christmas was good... Besides the damn stomach bug that i had for all of christmas day.  I got a Stereo that works with my ipod from My parents... And flipping yay it has a remote.. so i don't have to get outta bed to put my music on... Ok that saounds really lazy but honestly.. it's easier to get outta bed when there's already music playing! Also.. I bough a new laptop YAY.. it's been a long time coming that's for freakin sure!

Tomorrow i'm going up to dublin for 10 days!  gonna stay With The wonderful Katja until she goes to australia. her than that nothing really new has happened here... i could complain about what a suckish place is
but then again... That's nothing new right! haha... sorry i'm such whiney baby now cuz i wanna zap myself to being into Utah now!... Sad


On another note... I Like Katy Perry's Voice in This SONG

Christmaaas!

So I'm Kinda Getting in the Christmas Spirit now.... Kinda... Still Feeling like a little bit of a scrooge though haha...

But yesterday I went Toy Shopping with Colin and Got Some Stuff for Little Spud and Niamh and so i'm in the Gift Buying mood now.... and the Cooking Loooads of Food mood! :)  i Just wanna cook everything all the time.

I've been making alot of soup and stuff.. But i wanna bake some crap too!! :D

And ... Last Night My wee Brother moved out... Aw bless he's getting big!  Although the little Fecker Did come home to night and Steal Some Plastic ware to take his lunch to work tomorrow in¬ haha   But yeah!.... 

So tomorrow is another day of Christmas shopping With Mom and Travice....   I actually have no idea what to get some people¬  haha and then others i know exactly what to get... Like i'm gonna get Gavin the X Box Kinect...  and i'm gonna make him let me play it at least once¬   hahahahaha     And i think i know what to get Brendan...
But that's where it ends...  Also i'm Gonna Buy Myself Some Nice Kitchen Knives for Christmas!! Yes Yes!! it's a good Idea....   and then it's SAVIIING time so i can Blow this popsickle Stand and getoutta here:D :D Even Bigger YES YES¬


My Typing is Kinda Effy right now cuz i'm getting used to my old computer again... weird how easily you get used to omething else and then have to restart again.. Grrr




Anyhoo... I'm in Love with THIS Right now!  CLICK IT!!!


:) Peace out.

Dotdotdot

So... I'm back in Ireland
It's awesome to be able to see my parents and Siblings... and I just Looooved the Cuddles and Kisses my spuddy boy gave me, And Niamh is so beautiful and Clever. She got so big and. At first she didn't know who i was.... Until i gave her some sweeties... then she was all about getting to know who i was and wanted to drool her Candy cane spit all over me!!!  i Never Loved being Drooled on so much in my life!! :)   She's So cute!!!!


But.. I woud be Lying if i said i wouldn't get on the next plane i was offered back to Utah... lol


The Cold is awesome though!!   I love how the roads are Iced Like Keraaaazy!!! :)

Bad hair day

Dear Blog, it's been a while eh?!  lol

I was having a bad hair day today... Sad... haha

Aaaaah... So i have 3 days Left in Utah... Mega sadness right?!

It Sucks Major Butt... But  it doesn't feel AS bad as i did when i didn't know if i was gonna be back here or not.

Buuuuut  now i know fir shizzle that Poor Utah is Not rid of me for good... Sorry!

So i had alot of fun with the snow!! it's so awesome.. and White... and Cold!!... Although the cold part is the least of it's awesome Qualities! I took Smurf on a super long walk in it yesterday and today... And i got to feel all posh With my big Scarf and stuff haha...although i think my secret was out the moment i started giggling and Kicking snow at Smurf!!  it's ok though.. she liked it.. I'm not mean! hahaha

But yeah.... i must have looked like a 3 year old  Throwing snow and Giggling Uncontrollably! And what's worse is i had my iPod on Really loud... so i actually have no idea how loud i was actually laughing... I bet all them kids stuck in class were Jealous though... Secretly.... THey might have whispered "check the creep outside"   but what they meant was "i wanna be her" haha For sure!

The Wise Mr. Jack Johnson  once said "getting Lost is never a waste of time" so i'm gonna take the fact that i have to go back to cork as like.. Maybe there's something i have to do there Before i come back... Maybe that's it... Regardless... Christi Will be Back With a vengeance! and by "back with a Vengeance" i mean... "a Little Cooler than i already am.. if it's possible"

....Just sayin'

At least there's snoooow at home to further my Denial... :)

ok... Well.... I've run out of things to say...

Happy New year! :)

BLAAAAH

"blizzard" what blizzard?? Lol so there was no blizzard but there was snow and it was bloddy freezing today! I thought i had gotten frost bite after scraping solid ice from the car. But then nothing beats getting into the warm car and thawing out your fingers.
And on the drive to provo there was like a pond kinda and there were bijillions of ducks in it and the sun was shining :) from just looking outside you'd never have guessed that it was minus 5 degrees C. And the mountains were so freaking pretty... The way the snowy mountains reflected the orange sunlight as it was setting... This is why i like winter. Last winter in ireland was almost like that! With the exception of mountains of course... And ducks. And slightly more carnage on the road due to pure inexperience mixed with a couple of those "i can do it" drivers who thought ice was no match for their beast of a car..

 

I must admit... I do love when nature turns nasty. I get all excited for blizzards and floods and lightning storms! Although the excitement dies at tornados... Probably cuz i tend to have these weird dreams about running from like 4 at a time... I can probably attribute that to far too much television and a wild imagination. Which would also probably explain my recent wave of "criminal minds" like dreams. Although they wouldn't be half as bad if Dr. Reid or SSA Hotchner would once in a while make an appearance those dreams... Haha. I'm such a creep.


One day and one week until i go back to ireland.
They say home is where the heart is. I guess that depends on the definition of "the heart" right... I mean if it's where the people you love are.. Then ireland is home for sure my home... But so is south africa then..

But then home can be like a million places... Like what about people who move away from their families... Does that mean they're never home? So i'd like some clarification on this "heart" that the speak about. Cuz technically... That would make my home behind my ribs? Again with these metaphores.... I guess metaphores have a better ring that stuff that makes sense... And they're probably shorter too.... But take far longer to figure out... If you ever really figure them out.
I guess until i figure it out i'm still looking for "home"
that sounded like a terrible one liner that should be said by an annoying red head as he slips on his sunglasses.... Yes mr csi.
Well my eyes are burning from focusing on the bright screen in the dark and me hands are annoyed at texting this much... Cuz i have to hold the phone up with my pinky... Lol
happy thanksgiving :) :)

My Christmas list :)

So i have come up with a list of things (realistic and very unrealistic) that i want for christmas...
A piano
a kitten
a fish tank filled with guppies
a new car
a schnazzy camera
every episode ever of criminal minds
an acoustic guitar
a huuge art set
a music system (sad. Christi doesn't even have a radio???)
a new computer
every episode of the US Office
"Never Back Down" the movie
a video camera
a treadmill!!!
A house...or two :)
every ablum in existance by the following artists
*I Blame CoCo
*Taking Back Sunday
*Yellowcard
*Frank Sinatra
*Dire Straits
*Dashboard Confessional
*Michael Buble
*Escape the Fate
...and probably alot more...but it's late and i firgettt!
Hugs and kisses from Niamh and Spuddy!
Lots of chocolate!!!
A new dress...
High heel converse
I'd really like a little monkey!
I'd also like to own a baseball team.!
A recording studio.
A lifetime supply of slightly too big T-shirts
A ticket back to Americurrrr
Rum and Raisin ice-cream
All of the fast and furious movies!!
Paul Walker or Cam Gigandet...the latter would be preferred....
Channing Tatum.
New running shoes that are broken toe friendly.
Steak and Kidney pie!!!!

Ummmm... I think that's it for now... That's not too much to ask is it?? Hahaha
bubye.

Music and stuff.

There is nothing quite as theraputic as ripping up old letters while listening to the wonderful Mr. Adam Lazzara and Taking Back Sunday :)
although i temporarily feel like i'm 17 again every time i listen to them. :)
First song i ever learned to play on the guitar was "Makedamnsure" sadly i probably don't remember how to play it anymore... Except for the bit "we lie we lie together just not too close, too close" other than that.. I fiiirgot it. Although i was never really that good at playing guitar. I never practiced and i hate following music. Christi prefers to play by ear! Which is probably why i found the violin and the harmonica so much easier. Cus you just use your brain and figure out what each string sounds like... Then you pretty much know what'll come out depending on where you put your fingers. With the guitar... Eets not so simple... Although i still would like to master my baby


I remember the christmas i got that guitar! All pretty and blue and wonderful. And it matched my drum kit perfectly! I was so excited :) i think i've missed that alot over this few months. Making music. I haven't played a musical instrument since i've been here. Not even the piano. Sad. Next time i go away i'm for sure bringing some sort of instrument with me... Harmonica's nice and small.... So's my violin... Drums and the guitar'd be a little harder to kart around hahaha. It's kinda weird when i think about how much a part of my life music is. Like when my wall was pretty much wall papered with posters of fall out boy, taking back sunday, avenged sevenfold, paramore, the used, and other awesomeness... I kinda miss being like some crazed fan and having posters everywhere.... Good thing i saved them all hehehe



I love how just waking up to the right song can make like your whole day awesome...
Or at least trick you into thinking that it's gonna be amazing and so you act accordingly... I love it.
Or having that song that you like to drive to when you're pissed off... And you just wanna listen to it super super loud. Awesomeness... Although sometimes depending on the song you end up driving far faster than the speed limit allows.... I'm guilty. I needs me a track to drive around. Nothing feels better than i good drive!! Or beating someone in a race home... Hehehe especially if they've been driving like at least 10 years longer than you... Although the fact that you're driving a bmw and them a corolla... Kinda evens the playing field haha... But still nothing beats a good drive to some good music :)


I guess that's something to look forward to when i get back to ireland... Although Christi will try to keep the speed limit this time lol no really i will.... M'kay
bye.

Lemons?!?!?

<3 this song 


Aaah! today's my Second last saturday in Utah (for now haha) ... i have the habit of counting down stuff like that... Like before i left i was like.. this is the last time i eat pizza in ireland for a while... or this is the last time i drive... I'm such a douche!

So i woke up with a cat on my Feet clawing the crap outta me... But it was all good cuz i miss having a Kitty to wake me up.. Sad.
And i'm in a sickeningly Good mood today... considering that i spent yesterday thinking "i don't wanna go to Ireland" lol 


At Least i got a couple things to look forward to there though right? Like My Little Marky said he's got a huuuge Cuddle waiting for me as soon as i get home!! YAY! and Poco Niamh Is getting so big and Got 2 teeth and Crawling... so i get to see her!! :D :D :D That's good!! and For sure me ma and Pa And Btother und Schwester!! I Lubs them too!! :D
and maybe i'll get to take my stupid test before i leave   that way i can drive when i get back here! :D Riiight?

Other than that... I don't wanna leave  hahahaha... Oh well...  When Life Gives you melons.... you're Probably  Dyslexic!


I was Just talking to Me Martha this morning about how i hate all those silly Metaphorical Sayings!!  Like The Lemonade one...  Seriously...What if you hate lemonade?!  and if you like Lemons... Well then that saying becomes completely Redundant...

anyway... i shall Stop ranting now... and possibly Dance on a table or something.... No, not really.

Life has a funny way of Sneaking up on you... and being a little Biatch! lol

Isn't it Ironic? eh?  Click it

story of my life eh?
I'm so ridiculously indecisive that at soon as the oppertunity to make a rash decision comes along...*jump* i hop on it. Like some douche pissing me off... Bam christi's Dying to go home..... *christi gets time to think about it and have fun* dagnabbit!!! I do that though i force myself into making choices just so i can make them... When i can't choose between 2 things i do eenie meanie just to force a decision and then if i don't like "mo" i choose the other option... Which about 99 percent of the time.... Oh Christi!

Went to a basketball game tonight! BYU won :)
i didn't shout during the game though... Usually i get far too rude and obnoxious haha... Although i found myself repeatedly yellin"pass the ball! Bitches!?" in my head.... I guess it's good that it stayed in my head haha.

It was fun though.
I have come to the realization that i become obsessed with the smallest randomest things in songs. Eg in "cute without the E" you know the first time he says "i won't ever ask if you don't ever tell me" ? Well christi is in love with the way he says "you" just that first time... Although he can never do wrong by me. I've not so secretly been in love with him since i was like 17 lol.....
Oh welllllll.

Tonight is fir shizzle my rambling via blog night haha... I have been awake for 18 hours and still cannot get to sleep... It might possible have something to do with the coke i drank.. Just maybe.... But i think i'm immune to coke lol... Gimme some redbull maybe and it's a whole different story..... A scary one that don't end well (like the time i drank 7 of them and felt like death afterward.... Ended up waking up the next morning feeling more hungover than anyone else that was actually possibly drunk the night before..... Mmmm vanilla Rooibos tea and sunshine! Cured that right up :)


jeez..... I have far too much of nothing to say tonight. It's probably more me being selfish and rambling as some sort cathartic exercise... I guess that's all this ever really was right? Or at least that's why i started this like a year and something ago... So i can put down dumb thoughts but since it's online, not as dumb and nerdy as my journal.... I often read through my journal to remind myself that i could be and one was a bigger loooza than i am now lol. I am a freeeking rockstaa compared to how i was like... A few years ago... Eww!
Ok well this tiny keyboard has taken it's toll on my fingers and i think that 21 text pages worth of blog is enough for one night.... Especially since i gotta try send them in the right order now... Uh oh
good night. :D

So i've been sitting for about the last hour.... Staring at a bee on the light... With a rolled up newspaper.

It's quite pathetic that i'm so scared of bees.... Like so scared that even though i hate heights i'll run around on shakey scaffolding to get away from a bee... True story lol.

I think it's because when i was young i stepped on a bunch of dead bees by a fire and i remember it hurt... I just don't remember how much... So they're mega scary!!
I remember being in the game reserve in s.a and freaking oug like crazy if one came in the car. Like the one time when i took the air mattress and tried to hide underneath it.
I'm actually so freaked out right now.... It's like he's taunting me.... Flapping his wings every now and again as if he's gonna come at me.... Oh help me!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

Me no likey. :(

Wha'eva Minga

I'm so not in a Good mood today!

So This is My song for the Morning.

Alls Christi needs now is her Drum Kit or a Punching bag and Sorted.. Riight
 Sounds like a good idea .


The end

So i woke up in an odd paramore mood. It's very seldom that i decide to just listen to only paramore all the way through. :)

i had my first nap today since i've been in america! Sad!! Anyone who knows me knows i loves me a good nap!!
The closer to me leaving it gets... The super sadder i feel leaving lol.... That's christi's luck for ya! Aint no luck of the irish there! Lol

oh wel
sad lol
merry christmas

...

So it's Super Dooper Sunny today... Noice Bai!

I'm Having a Seriously Clumsy day today...  First i woke up By laughing so hard that i snorted myself awake.. Good thing no one else was home haha..  then i was Doing my hair and stepped backwards and fell into the bath?!?!  then i Tried Brushing my teeth with the Toothpaste Tube...
Then i made myself some food... I got all comfy and sat down.. And realised that i forgot my spoon... Saaaad!  so while i'm getting my spoon i also got me a glass of water... Sipping away at my water and i got a little over zealous and poured half the Glass Down my shirt....  WTF!?


Maybe it's cuz i woke up too late Although waking up implies that one was actually asleep Lol

Oh wellll What can ya do like!


i Like this song.

 

Chicks who cook on telly...

i have this annoying Addiction to the Food Channel... i mean it probably wouldn't be annoying if i had a huge Kitchen withe Every possible ingredient in it... But since i don't... It's pretty Annoying!!  Although... i think i Just Threw up in my mouth... Some Chick is Making Apple and Sausage right now!?  That's pretty Effing Disgusting!!  Not to mention her high pitched voice!

I'v always hated Woman Chefs!  like it's not THAT amazing that you can cook.. you;re a woman... it;s your job! haha..

But really  Maybe it's cuz only the annoying ones get their own shows!! i think they Should Give Alex Guarnaschelli her own show... i'd watch that!



Oh well..

3 Posts in ONE DAY?!

Indeed  it is so... But this is my attempt at maintaining the Good mood i woke up with! Click the links Fool!

Some Funny

Some Awesome

Some "i'm annoyed and i'm gonna drive real fast"

Some Rarrrrrr

Some more Rarrrrrr

Ok now i'm in a good mood.

:D

Before i Forget....

I shall Mention the Awesomeness of What Is "Taco Tuesday" I never actually thought it was a
real thing... i always thought it was just a reason to eat food because it starts with the same letter as the day... Oh alliteration..

But no... it's for real! i swear! i was there because Mr. "Elder Gardner" Was Awesome enough to Invite me to tag Along and Bask in it's amazingness! Mmmm Hot Sauce!


:D

Sink into me.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryWV7LsF-ps&ob=av2e

How can anyone wake up to this song and Not be in a good mood?!?!? I have no idea!!

YAYs! i'm Having a Chat with Megs for the first time in ages! She misses me so terribly that i had to text her!! haha :P
I think the sun is coming out.... that wasn't a Metaphor for anything though... i mean the sun is actually shining outside! Lol

I miss My little Spud Monkey and Niamh... They are growing up so fast and i've only been gone a month?! i guess in baby time that's Ages!!

Little Niamh already has a tooth! I'm excited for her to bite my fingers off just like Marky did!! Lol

Next thing she'll be running around too... Aww...

And to think she used to be So small... Kerazy!

"Well i'd Like to see our Roles Reversed, To see you hang on every word. I'd Like to See you have your Way"

Snow?!

Haha So today was the first time it Actually Snowed While i was awake... And it was like being back in Ireland sitting in class and suddenly it's snowing and everyone's staring out the window and no work gets done... I had this Huge grin on my face while i was walking the dog and then i had tho tell myself to stop looking like such a goof ball because everyone else here has seen snow a billion times and i Am walking around like i just Found santa's village or something! haha.... I'm suck a Dork!

But.. i can deal with being a creep.. :D
MAybe.
haha
Whatever

If i saw myself now last week i wold have Tripped me!

So i woke up today... BEFORE TEN!!! WTF?!? i know right!

And i just woke up in a generally good mood....
And the realisation that if people don't think you're worth their time... they're not worth yours!

I also still had the weirdest dreams everrr... That i most likely woke up a billion times during the night.... and as i was falling asleep i fell out of my bed... which just made me have to start the falling asleep process allll over again!

But I still woke up in an annoyingly good mood.
Perhaps it's because it's the first time in ages that i woke up to the sound of rain falling on my window! or perhaps it's that i should get up before ten more often... although it was my unreasonable good mood that made me get outta bed so early... so yeah

Me who cares.. a good mood is a good mood. the only thing that would make me feel Even better is A nice big fire to burn some stuff in... i think that'd be good!! and Fairly Theraputic haha

anyway... Whatever.

The joys of Daylight Saving!! :)

So i found out today that in Utah the clocks Go back an hour like... now! Yay!! it's Like eleven pm all over again... Oh Love!~! I have decided that i like weekends. More than i used to too!

I also have a weird Chewing gum thing going on... i bought like 4 giant packs of gum on monday... that makes me happy! especially cuz they're awesomely flavoured!! although i think my Jaws are getting pretty irritated at constantly having to chew and blow bubbles... But Christi Likes that so there.

I woke up this morning feeling like i had some major hang over or something...it was like death... but it's just a silly cold...

My iPod and i have become good friends again! for a while mr Poddy was Neglected and only brought out when i needed a good song to cry to. haha Christi's lame! she knows!
But now we're good again! it's awesome for taking walks or when i'm getting ready... i think i'd die if i didn't have it with me! aaaaaaah... nightmares! lol

Speaking of nightmares... i still am having the most insane dreams EVER!!
This is the most Disjointed Blog post ever... but it's for the sake of me not losing my mind...


It's already november... Holy cow.. i can't believe the year has gone so fast.... when i think about the past year... ugh... Vomit! if only i knew how puke worthy it was gonna be before it was!!!
Although... i'm that lame that i'd probably have said... Eh... i'm down with that...

Although it's always good to know what's coming... so you can be like i knew that was gonna happen... i'm prepared... Rather than... WHAT THE CRAP?!?!!?!
Then again... Knowing me when i do know what's gonna happen i'm still sickeningly positive about it in my head even when on the outside i'm as negative as hell about things. It's cuz i'm weird.

Whatever..

Goodnight.

The weird dreams i dream.

Today i woke up about an hour after i usually wake up... although yesterday... it was 2 hours Later.
I think i want to Blame Criminal Minds For my weird dreams and lack of proper sleep... Yesterday morning i woke up thinking i needed to find "ruth's" Diary so we could figure out who would want to Kidnap her... i don't even know anyone by the name of Ruth... but within a few seconds of opening my eyes and stretching out of the ball i usually turn into while sleeping, i snapped back to reality and laughed at my self for letting a tv show Turn me crazy... like that time i watched Doll house and woke up in the night Smacking my self along side the head saying "why are you making me do this" i thought i had no control over my hands and the "dollhouse people" were making me do it... One can't help but laugh at themselves when they awake properly and realise that they are most likely INSANE!! haha Although.. that time i was super sick and had a fever... so i'll blame it all on that!! :D

Tuesday night i dreamed that i could fly... I hate those dreams for the very fact that i always have to wake up to the reality that ... i cannot just flap my arms and fly. Sometimes it's not even Flapping my arms... sometimes i have to hold some random object to make me fly... Like a Playing card. or once i flew on a tennis racket as if it were a Witch's broom. Sometimes though.. i don't fly.. i just jump really high. and in my dreams i'm used to doing it but part of me is still majorly Freaked out at how high i can get.

then there's the weird dreams where i'm drowning but for a few seconds after my head goes under the water i can breathe, i always find myself thinking "Wow this is like that dream i once had except it's real life" and the waking up to find that indeed.. it was just like the other dreams i have when i breathe under water. I'm such a weirdo...

The two types of dreams never go together though.. usually... Except tuesday i dreamed that i was flying over the river in cork city.. and someone was drowning so i stopped flying and tried to help them... then i was drowning... except not really cuz i was breathing under water... i think my face just sometimes gets covered by my blanket and so my brain tries to compensate for what my body is feeling. Like the moments before you're going to sleep and suddenly your foot jerks... and you feel like you dreamed you were tripping.. well i think that you only think you dreamed you were tripping cuz your brains trying to make sense of the random Foot Jerking.

Really i'm just rambling on hoping to keep myself awake long enough to be tired enough to sleep properly.


Goodnight.

Well Well Well... Guess who's in Utah for the next 6 months! ... Christi is!


It's a really weird feeling... Like even when i was getting on the plane it felt like it wasn't supposed to be real... and now still waking up every morning (there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriends four post bed) *sorry that was random* back to the point... it still feels like it's not real! i guess it'll start to feel more normal after a while... After all.. it's only been 4 days...

But yeah! Utah's so pretty! i Love the mountains! didn't really get the chance to see them like this the last time i was here for the 3 days....


Anyhoo... That's it for now! :D


Christi

Dwarfsm

Sometimes Beign the Bigger Person Makes you feel Really Small!....

Oh well...

Just Venting VENTING

I've decided to start a new Blog... for the sake of Letting people know what's up when i leave...

But....

For the Sake of venting... well.. i'll still use this hahaha.....


so... yeah... i shall post the thingermajig of the new one as soon as ... well as soon as it exists!

:/ christi

So Long Sucker!

so... this last week and a bit has been eventfull....

I spent like 4 days in Dublin Visiting Katja!! she's back for good!! :D :D

then the tuesday i came back to cork and then went up that night to limerick for a fireside with the Chapmans! :D
It was crazy! it was like Pres Chapman Came there to give that talk to just me!! i think even Heavelny Father coming donw Himself to talk to me would have been More Subtle!! lol

So yeah... i realised there were changes i need to make... Luckily in His Talk Pres Chapman also spoke of blessings that put my mind at ease!

So i made the changes.... That night.... as hard as it was, it was right... Then BAM! 2 days later it was like all hell was loose on me.... this last few days have been some of the hardest ever... i actually considered Killing myself as an option... I felt betrayed and worthless... it sucked big time... then i thought to myself... why the hell am i having a harder time almost from the instant i decided to do the right thing.... i should be blessed... then i realised that Just Like Heavenly Father Speaks to us through people... Satan Does too....

So i'm Kicking his ass out the door..... and the minute i decided to forget the Crap things and people... i saw the blessings that Pres Chapman spoke about... I had a good day forgetting the bad days!

The Church is true



Christi

Music.

Anyone who knows me well at all knows me at all knows that i have such a huge love for music. they will also know that i love a good ol bit of rock music. I'm not saying that's wrong... i still do...

But wow... i was trying to have the spirit with me a little bit more as i was pondering something... a decision... and no music has ever helped me like listening to Hymns sung by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.

Tonight more than any night I know that the Church is true! i know that President Thomas S Monson is a True Prophet of God that leads the Church today. I KNOW that Heavenly Father Answers our prayers! maybe not how or when we want them answered... but how and when is best for us and our happiness. i KNOW that the Book Of mormon is another Testament of Jesus Christ. Translated by a True Prophet of God. Joseph Smith. and i now Fully understand why when persecuted and tormented and put in jail he NEVER denied the Gospel. BECAUSE IT IS TRUE.

It is True.

Hair

i've come to the conclusion that... i dye my hair when i feel depressed... it's back to black hair for me.... haven't dyed it in like 8 months

Movies

you know the part of thos epic war movies where it's dark and grey and the fight is building up?... then suddenly there's this climactic battle and people die and then it's over and the sun comes up... and the winners walk away victorious, although they'd lost so many on the way they made it to the sunshine and there's green and smiling and happiness?..... i feel like i'm in that movie! i wish the sun would come out and i could stop mourning what i lost in the battle and get on with victory.

although... it feels like i'm only in last half of the battle.
I wish i could skip to the greenery
just fastforward the battle to the scenery


I realised today that i was so busy trying to be angry at the ones that hurt me that i never got a chance to just be.

when i looked up smiling at them, not thinking about being angry, i knew i wasn't angry... i wanted to be, now i'm just angry at myself for being such a failure that i can't be angry at her anymore for ho she hurt me.... Just hurt but not angry.

i want to fast forward the the part where i am something.

I don't Really deserve Anything Good to last...

Can We Pretend that Airplanes in the the night sky are Like Shooting Stars? i could really use a Wish right now

But Some People just make living through all that... completely Worth It!! :)

Whatever the opposite of home sick is! Sick of home?

This Time Last year i was sooo not here!.... and right now i sooo don't want to be here!...

argh!... i'm feeling like such a whiney baby but yeah.. i need to be gone for a while again! As much as i know the church is true... thought of seeing everyone every sunday... just makes the thought of staying in bed so appealing! and then i'm not teaching ysa sunday school... so i have even less motivation to go! Aaaaargh! i wish i was in a biiig ward where no one knew me and i didn't know them... we could just take each other at face value.. instead of having to talk to someone and thinking to myself.. "you're such a *insert word to describe a number of people here*" or thinking... "avoid them... i know what they said about me but if i acknowledge the fact that i know i'll have to kill them but i can't bare to talk to you and pretend it's all ok!!!"

Or wondering why they themself are talking to me when they think so badly of me?

i know it's my problem.. not theirs... but argh! Holiday please?! anyone?!

it's been a long long time!

well.. yes i've been bad again!! SHAME ON ME!! lol

well.. hmm.. lets see what has happened?

I finished College... Thank Goodness....
i got a job... starting tomorrow.... pretty suckish... i'm still hoping someone calls me and offers something better by tomorrow.... the thought of it is killing me!!!! i guess heavenly Father knows what he's doing. i just hope his plans don't include me doing this job for too long....

the weather is amazing!!!! flipping roasting... i feel like i'm in america again!... (ha yeah i wisssssh)

this place is driving me NUTS!!! i seriously need to get outta here for some time before i either go insane or kill someone!! AAARRRGGGGHHHH!!


Anyhoo.... That's it for now?!

i should stress more!

today i had my one and only exam.... of course i didn't study for it.... it went pretty awsomely!!

Tomorrow i have to have my final stuff in.... of course a whole bunch of earlier stuff i didn't get in... Why>! ? because i am a huge waste of space! that's why! anyway... i sometimes wish i would stress more about things than to just sit and be like... yeah yeah i'll have loads of time to do it tomorrow... i do stress about stuff... i just don't do anything about it!! why am i so retarded?! hmmm i dunno either?!


Oh well.... i guess tomorrow i can find some other part of my life to screw up since college'll be over right>!

this is how i feel right now..... Click the link! :D

x http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_jifKb_j0c

oh the pain!

so today we had Ysa Family home evening again... last week we had 9 there... this week we had 10 there and 5 of the usual comers were not there because of college work.... pretty impressive eh?! we're doing really well... and we had a good bit of fun too tonight! played dodgeball for a while and then decided to play football.... me being in flip flops decided to take them off and play barefoot... i kicked the partition as i kicked the ball... split my toes that they bled... then kicked Michaels Steel Toe Caps... Broke at least 2 toes and flipping hurt the others pretty bad.... cry cry cry! lol

luckily i didn't cry! we still played 2 more matches afterwards! lol

but yeah! was a good night!! :D :D

Progress....

well this weekend was District council and auxilary training... so i had to go to that in limerick and then give a talk at the training... i was flipping freaking out but it forced me to think about how we were doing in ysa in cork with the New Centre For Young Adults that we have going.

January: 2 ysa attending Family Home Evening
3 ysa attending sacrament meeting regularly

April: 9-11 Ysa attending family Home Evening (one of whom has been inacttive for over 12 years, He also brings a friend.)
6-8 Ysa attending sacrament meeting AND gospel doctrine classes
11 Ysa coming out to dinner and Games on a saturday evening.

I'm Glad i was asked to give that talk.. as scary as it was it showed me how the programme really changes peoples lives and benefits us all.

YAY!!

:D

....

I'm pretty much about to fall asleep with my face in the keyboard....
Today was such a nice day! a beach day! i realised today that i hadn't been to the beach or swimming since i was in america.... and how long ago it was that i was in america.... CRAZY! i miss it!? weird... maybe it's cuz the weather here sucks serious butt!

at least it's alright now.... just as i'm about to go back to college... oh joy!
3 weeks left and then i soooo need to have a job! Fo shizzle like!

anyway..

Good night...

Bah

i wish i stayed

in my bed lay 2 baby birdies trying to warm up with a heat lamp above them. i think the one's dead for sure.... the other one is moving around and tweeting a bit...

08:46 and already a lesson learned.

Just because you whole Heartedly trust someone doesn't make them Trustworthy. it makes you Stupid!

GAH!

so there's this huge thing going on in South Africa! the Leader of the ANC youth League is telling people to Kill the Boer Farmers. this weekend Eugene Terre-Blanche was murdered. not only was he a White Farmer but he was also Leader of the Afrikaner Weerstandsbeweging. so Big Apartheid Fan.

What drives me insane is the fact that when talking about this they say how he was such a racist man and bla bla bla... but Julius Malema the Guy telling people it is ok to murder White farmers ISN'T RACIST??!?!??!?!?!?!??!??! Does anyone understand this?!?!?!

Anyway.. kinda just a bit worried because my Uncle and his partner are the inspectors investigating the murder... Argh.... Scary but kinda cool at the same time. Deffinately gonna be someone in my Prayers Alot!!!


sorry. Rant!

Uh-Oh

so... today i decided to brave it and drive to Trav's place alone... all freaked out i got into the car and off i went... Got stuck in Traffic for 20 mins... not moving!! and then some woman almost cut me off.. i had to hop the curb... and then i get past everything and i'm just around the corner at the traffic light... and MY BATTERY DIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the heck!! i was sooo mortified!! stuck there at the traffic light in the middle of the road. Thank goodness Gav worked jus down the road so he came and rescued me and some nice guy stopped and helped us push the car to a safe place, then we went back to gav's work to get jumper leads. the mechanic that works next door came with and checked out the car and then towed me to trav's for free.. Nice. i think now that that all happened... i'll be pretty comfy driving alone now... what's the worst that could happen right?! hahahaha

What a Tiring day!

today is gonna be the day that...

well... just back from my run and shower! today i realy enjoyed it.. like REALLY!! i actually ran alot of it rather than walk.... and i don't hurt after running anymore! go me! :D i can't wait till i can actually just run the whole hour without walking! that'll be a good day! :D :D

Anyhoo.... got some reief society lunch thing this afternoon... but they say no kids.. so i don't think trav will be there. so i kinda don't wanna go?!!? i'd feel bad gong without her lol

Anyhoo.... Today's gonna be a good day!

Hmmmm well today was an awesome day! spent the day baking cookies with trav. and did some nice stuff.... kinda weird i thought i was a nice person i guess... but i never really did anything NICE.. so it felt kinda good! :D Mark is soo cute! i love him so much! and little Niamh is starting to smile more and more everytime i see her!! sooo cute!

Anyhoo.... i thought things were going to be horrible as of today... but i guess life's what you make it right? (sorry for the Baaad Hannah Montanna Quote)

MMMMMMMMMMM

hmm.. i decided to give up on my giving up on baking!! today me and Trav baked some cookies! our own super awesome recipe... they came out pretty flipping awesome!! i just wanted to eat them all... but i'd deffo regret that!! anyhoo... i'm pretty darn proud of myself! lol

:D

......

I could soooo go for a run right now. i need to get stuff out and be tired so i can be asleep!

And.. again.

GAH!! did it again today! didn't keep up as well as yesterday but i figure that's fine since well.. i was in pain before i even started! but it was good still... did around 4 miles and a bit. it rained some too... but not enough to be crappy.. just enough to be refreshing. but then it became sunny and lovely! i ripped my finger nail off while pulling up my sock though... hurt a flipping lot!! i can't type properly now.. but me i'll get over it hopefully! gonna try get some of the pictures of the morning that i took!

DEATH!

i did it! i woke up at 6 and went running for an hour and a half with Brendan and David. i might die. feels good though.. didn;t think i could keep going for that long but i didn't stop the whole time. obv i walked some and ran some.. but i didn't stop. i'm way proud of myself :D :D

Things can only get...

i've been wanting to go running for AAAAGES now. Brendan and David are going running at 6:30 tomorrow so yaaaaay!! it's like.. a fresh new start for me! Heaven knows old Christi wouldn't have gone running!! then i can be all... fit and stuff. i like the sound of that! i'm getting in a good mood now. i'm so greatful for the people who care about me and support me. i have realised that they far outweigh those who don't. i'm lucky :D
we'll see how the early morning running goes... aah Scary and exciting at the same time. i just gotta keep at it til it doesn't tire me anymore! (this might be a while hahaha)

Good night :D

XD

Little Niamh Christina Stapleton was born this morning at 6:20 GMT... I haven't been able to visit her yet because of stupid hospital rules but from the pictures, She looks just like Trav! hopefully i'll get to see her tonight!

Wow! could life get any better?! i doubt it!

Today i woke up in travs bed to spud saying.. Christi!!! Christi!!! are you my mom? (bacause he didn;t know i was gonna be there and in his mom's bed) i was like no baby! Mommy has gona to the hospital to fetch the baby! her name is Niamh! and you're her big Brother! i showed him a picture that trav sent via text. He spent the next 10 minutes lying next to me Laughing and giggling and saying NIIIAAAMMMMHHH!! a little sister! and then giggling again! it was the cutest thing ever!!

He came to our house then to give brendan a chance to nap when he got home (trav had been in labour since about 3 am Or at least that's when her waters broke)
so after breakfast and stuff me and spuddy went for a bath!!! it was so funny! he was splashing and stuff the whole time! and spitting Soapy water at me!!!

Flipping Adorable little boy!!!





Damn People at the hospital wont let me visit trav and Baby!! i hate the idiot who came up with that!!

They should die!




Besides that... it;s all good! :D

Morning!!

Good Morning...

well.. yes i've taken the day off today since i had collectively like... an hour of sleep! sucks asss!!!

so i'm gona do some work on my visual Diary for studio...

and trav and spud are here too! :)

anyway... it's all good in the hood!

tat's about al i have to say right now! lol

Bubye!

Christi

...>_<...

I'm baaaaaaack!! Gah!

today is ma day off! :) yay i love wednesdays!

i woke up today muush earlier than i planned.. which technically wasn't actually that early!

but since i had like NO sleep the night before it was pretty early!

anyway.. did pretty much nothing all day so far! and it's almost over... wow the day like... FLEW¬ i kinda feel bad! lol i better go ut new stuff on my ipod so i can listen to it while iclean the kitchen!

xD

Hmm...

Well things are going pretty perfectly!

back in college after christmas... now's crunch time!! gotta Get everything done and perfect! :)

Then the holidays begin in May.. Woo!
i actually cannot wait!! i gotta get me a job asap when college is over! that'll be good! money! :) :)

anyway.. that's about all i'm willing to say on here..

Good night!

Christi

:D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6jCdUaaE1Q

Yup... i just used a link as a Blog Title!
hmmm well an interesting thing happened to me the other day.. yeah i pretty much almost DIED!
I'd left my camera at Camilla's house and we decided to go through the snow and stuff to get it! (Thank you Mommy :D ) the ice on the road up to millie was like an inch of pure compacted ICE! and we were driving up grand when some dude pulled out infront of us and we had to slow down... then we couldn't go ANYWHERE cuz we had lost momentum and just skidded around on the road. I ran to millies and got my camera and she came with to help.. we pushed and pulled the car pretty much anyway we could... nothing! so me being a nerd out in my socks i decided to hack holes in the ice with the Jack for somne traction since it's rear wheel drive and everything...
So there we are! me and Millie pushing the car... Nothing... then two other girls came and girls came and gave us a hand..... i was at the back of the right hand side of the car pulling it by the open window so mom could reverse... millie on the other side and the two girls at the front pushing... the car caught on the holes in the ice and started Going faster. I slipped. i skidded under the car and back out again just yelling careful careful.. that was pretty much all i could think of.. instead of like.. um stop i'm under the car or something... i'm fine. bruised my knee but that's it. guess i should actually do something with my life now right?!

:D

Christi